it has a meaning

i've always thought that music means something to each individual... and one of the most intimate things one person can know about the other, is how to decipher these Musically Meaningful Messages...

i've always hoped to someday find the person who could read me that way. like if they thought i didn't seem happy or something, they'd ask me "what song?"... because every song means so much more than someone could ever expect... like it's not just one emotion that someone can describe... it's not just sad or happy... it's lonely, miserable, heartache, reminiscent, ignored, rejected, upset, insecure... ALL those things... described in one song...

i have a few examples of that... may seem strange... but here's a few.

empowered, in a rush, inspired, sexy and sassy: Runaway Baby - Bruno Mars (DON'T JUDGE!)
superior, fierce and chilled: Help Yourself - Amy Winehouse
childish, silly, open and a little outta control: Animal - Neon Trees / Spotlight (Oh Nostalgia) - Patrick Stump
reminiscent, lost, regretful: Asleep - The Smiths
And then of course:
Insecure, lonely, ignored, rejected, upset... bla bla bla: I Want To Save You - Something Corporate

there's a lot of others... but that's gonna take unravelling, effort and deciphering.

joy dancing

people look at me weird when i start dancing in the street... when i start singing and randomly swaying by myself... when i'm jiving while waiting for the little man to go green and let me walk...

but what really is the problem with that? I LOVE DANCING WHEN I'M HAPPY!
in fact, sometimes i dance when i'm unhappy... when things are annoying, i'll sing and dance... to get myself feeling better...

sidenote: my mother just put some my broken drumsticks given by a drummer from a band inside a tube of mostly eaten jelly beans... I SWEAR THE WOMAN'S A GENIUS!

and back!
So, i've been thinking... why do people find me so strange? so what if i constantly dance all the time non-stop shamelessly... why can't we all be free to do so?

the other week, i noticed a little baby... barely able to crawl... just doing that commando thing and dragging her legs behind her... anyway, she kept trying to get closer and closer to the speakers so that she could listen to the music over everyone's talking and keep doing her dance...
Babies know how to dance... more importantly, babies know to dance when there's music! We started paying attention to her gorgeous little dance and headshake, and started talking about each one's individual way of dancing when they were babies...

so there. babies dance and do their thang when there's music around...
we're older and more grown up and have more knowledge of the world... why can't we keep dancing?
and why can't we dance when there ISN'T any music around?
answer me this: is it wrong to want to groove?

why would you care

has the world really trained us all to become so self centred that we sit around saying that the person we'll be with for the rest of our lives will accept us for who we are?
how stupid do you have to be to really believe that?

I mean, yeah, the person will love you no matter what, but dude, seriously... they won't want to spend their whole lives being all like "it's a quirk... hehe... -.-"
I kid you not, it may be cute a few times, but after a while, people can get annoyed. it makes them wish you'd learn to do something other than your usual routine. and while that may be difficult for some people, i believe that girls find it easier.
Girls adapt much faster and girls like that feeling of making their other half proud, therefore girls will try their very besterest to get along with friends, and look nice for their other half. Problem is, other halves don't usually care, or notice that a girl does this (until he no longer has this - which is understandable)... here's the thing:
girl no longer feels appreciated > tries harder > still doesn't feel appreciated > girl talks to guy.

Things can go two ways with this last one..
1. guy listens and tries to do things which let the girl know that he's paying attention and that he appreciates it.
2. guy can not give a crap and just keep doing what he wants to do because the girl loves him anyways, so he doesn't have to try.

see the problem here? see which one's easiest to do?

and that, is why so many marriages become loveless.
even if they don't get a divorce, there is no longer happiness in being with each other... but there they are, devoted to each other none the less.
and when they do get a divorce, it's painful, but at least they get to try happiness again...

so, treat your women with respect, love, gentleness and adoration because they try a lot for you.
and women, let your man know that you love him and you're there for him. but if he doesn't bother, and you notice that he has the tendency to act like a kid, RUN! RUN FOR YOUR FUTURE MARRIAGE'S SAKE! :P

also, Men... Act like MEN! far out... don't sit around waiting for mummy to do something, or your woman to cry before you defend her... DO SOMETHING!
Damn it man! Run the fricking red light!*

*metaphor... don't actually run red lights... that's illegal and dangerous.

but that's the price she pays

who doesn't want to be happy?
those who don't, enjoy self-sacrifice, martyrdom... yeah, it may have been for the sake of love... but no human is that selfless. eventually they'll move on to find something that keeps them occupied and at times, even happy.
they'll forget the person they left "for love"... because they wanted the one they love to be happy. but eventually they'll adjust. get used to being alone or move on.
there's no such thing as one love.

herp derp

okay, so life.
uni is awesome! but i have SOOOO much to do!!
i'm kind of happy with my personality though... i mean, if it wasn't for the fact that i constantly put myself out there to do stuff and stuffy stuff, i wouldn't have become the Games Section Editor for GSM (it stands for G-Spot Magazine, but we can't say that because of marketing stuff... on the other hand, we've been told it can stand for whatever we like... for me, it now stands for German Socialist Magazine....... :/ )
so yeah.

i'm tired of people complaining about never having anything to do, and no one offering them stuff, but stuff doesn't happen unless you're willing to be out there and do something... am i right?

pshhhh.... no. LOL

I thought you were going to blow up!!

guys who hold hands are funny...
and brave.

a balanced diet

numbness.
there's uni, home, responsibilities, friendships and a possible love life.
gotta work it all out and straighten up and fly right.
got a lot ahead of me... a world of possibilities.


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