força.

as vezes eu acho que eu sou a pior filha no mundo...
mas aí penso um pouquinho mais, e lembro que talvez não sou a pior.

it has a meaning

i've always thought that music means something to each individual... and one of the most intimate things one person can know about the other, is how to decipher these Musically Meaningful Messages...

i've always hoped to someday find the person who could read me that way. like if they thought i didn't seem happy or something, they'd ask me "what song?"... because every song means so much more than someone could ever expect... like it's not just one emotion that someone can describe... it's not just sad or happy... it's lonely, miserable, heartache, reminiscent, ignored, rejected, upset, insecure... ALL those things... described in one song...

i have a few examples of that... may seem strange... but here's a few.

empowered, in a rush, inspired, sexy and sassy: Runaway Baby - Bruno Mars (DON'T JUDGE!)
superior, fierce and chilled: Help Yourself - Amy Winehouse
childish, silly, open and a little outta control: Animal - Neon Trees / Spotlight (Oh Nostalgia) - Patrick Stump
reminiscent, lost, regretful: Asleep - The Smiths
And then of course:
Insecure, lonely, ignored, rejected, upset... bla bla bla: I Want To Save You - Something Corporate

there's a lot of others... but that's gonna take unravelling, effort and deciphering.

joy dancing

people look at me weird when i start dancing in the street... when i start singing and randomly swaying by myself... when i'm jiving while waiting for the little man to go green and let me walk...

but what really is the problem with that? I LOVE DANCING WHEN I'M HAPPY!
in fact, sometimes i dance when i'm unhappy... when things are annoying, i'll sing and dance... to get myself feeling better...

sidenote: my mother just put some my broken drumsticks given by a drummer from a band inside a tube of mostly eaten jelly beans... I SWEAR THE WOMAN'S A GENIUS!

and back!
So, i've been thinking... why do people find me so strange? so what if i constantly dance all the time non-stop shamelessly... why can't we all be free to do so?

the other week, i noticed a little baby... barely able to crawl... just doing that commando thing and dragging her legs behind her... anyway, she kept trying to get closer and closer to the speakers so that she could listen to the music over everyone's talking and keep doing her dance...
Babies know how to dance... more importantly, babies know to dance when there's music! We started paying attention to her gorgeous little dance and headshake, and started talking about each one's individual way of dancing when they were babies...

so there. babies dance and do their thang when there's music around...
we're older and more grown up and have more knowledge of the world... why can't we keep dancing?
and why can't we dance when there ISN'T any music around?
answer me this: is it wrong to want to groove?